Here I am again

Sometimes I feel like I am back at square one with God. I hate to admit that but I am sure I am not the only one who feels that way. Deep down the love is always there but the desire has faded at times.

I can pinpoint my problem easily. I allow myself to often to let the cares of life bother me. Instead of allowing these issues to bring me to my knees, I take them into my own hands. That is where we get ourselves in trouble is when WE try to fix things instead of giving the problems to the Lord.

I am so tired of letting myself getting to this point. Does it happen often? No. But I never want it to happen. I wish I was a person that could just let things roll off my shoulders and not worry about it. But that is not who I am.

Maybe some of this could be me entering a new stage in my life. I feel like a lot of me is changing but I am scared of what it could mean eventually. What direction could the Lord be leading Kevin and I in?

So I now have to take a stand and change the areas that I know need it most! Starting with my mind and my eyes. I need to stop watching others and allowing their actions to affect my views. I need to dive into the word with a desire more than ever. Lastly but most importantly I need to rebuild a relationship with God through lots of prayer.

God is good!