Here I am again

Sometimes I feel like I am back at square one with God. I hate to admit that but I am sure I am not the only one who feels that way. Deep down the love is always there but the desire has faded at times.

I can pinpoint my problem easily. I allow myself to often to let the cares of life bother me. Instead of allowing these issues to bring me to my knees, I take them into my own hands. That is where we get ourselves in trouble is when WE try to fix things instead of giving the problems to the Lord.

I am so tired of letting myself getting to this point. Does it happen often? No. But I never want it to happen. I wish I was a person that could just let things roll off my shoulders and not worry about it. But that is not who I am.

Maybe some of this could be me entering a new stage in my life. I feel like a lot of me is changing but I am scared of what it could mean eventually. What direction could the Lord be leading Kevin and I in?

So I now have to take a stand and change the areas that I know need it most! Starting with my mind and my eyes. I need to stop watching others and allowing their actions to affect my views. I need to dive into the word with a desire more than ever. Lastly but most importantly I need to rebuild a relationship with God through lots of prayer.

God is good!

Cleaning and Organizing

I decided to spend my last day off before my four day stretch at work cleaning our house. Boy does it need done! I have honestly neglected a lot of things and now it's taking more time than I would like but hey, it needs done! While I am cleaning I am also organizing our counters and putting things away that we seldom use (e.g. toaster, coffee pot, spice rack). We really don't have a lot of counter space so moving all of this to storage in our closet is very helpful!

I just sent Kevin to his moms to return her roaster that we used on Christmas Eve and then to the store to pick up hamburger and a couple other items. We will be having spaghetti and garlic bread for supper. I am trying out the garlic Barilla spaghetti sauce. There was a sale at Meijer one day so I bought a jar of Barilla sauce and I am excited to try it out!

I have discussed this to much but back in November I joined Weight Watchers online. I know a lot of people right now that are on it or have been on it and has had fantastic results. I like the whole program. It is a lot a like something else I had followed in the past and I had good results BUT followed a very unhealthy diet. Weight Watchers is far from unhealthy and I think when I start following it I will do well. Not only that but Kevin has about 15 pounds he would like to lose so he decided to follow it with me.

I will be honest, I have tried the eating low fat and counting calories way which is a great way to diet but it's honestly not fitting for me. I like knowing that I have 36 points to stick to. Maybe the low number is easier for me and doesn't make me feel overwhelmed? Not sure but say a prayer because this time around I am sticking to this! With Kevin and I both doing this will even be more helpful!

Right now we plan to fix whatever we have that isn't the healthiest and get it out of the way and start buying for a more healthier diet. We have been incorporating healthier things to see what we like and don't like. I really love the Weight Watchers cream cheese and we both really like whole wheat bagels. We also bought low fat plain yogurt, bananas, frozen strawberries and frozen raspberries and plan to make breakfast smoothies.

I am really excited about this change for the both of us and for our future!